Day 40

3 miles hiked 
I forgot Glow at the hotel so I messaged Chili on the way up to the trail so he can either give it to our friend to ship with the other stuff I dropped or he can hike with him to me. 
Made it to trail and it was time to start hiking. I listened to Taylor Swift’s new album for the first 1.5 hours. (damn what a great album)
Then by hour two something shifted… 
Today… No pain, no aches, but mentally I was not fine. I am not fine. I don't know what is wrong though because nothing feels wrong. Meaning I can’t pin point exactly what is wrong. I hiked 3 miles and then sat down and suddenly started crying and it wouldn’t stop for almost 3 hours no matter what tactics I tried to tell myself that I was fine. 
I came across some trail maintenance people and they took me down the mountain again. What the hell is wrong with me? When I got down there I came across Chili again, who was supposed to be on trail already and hiking. We decided to split another room to share costs, got some food, I retrieved Glow back from him, and I took a nap. I cried in the hotel room a bit more too. Ugh what is wrong with me? 
I later found out that this time should be when I am getting my period, but because I am taking my birth control continuously to avoid a period on trail and having to pack out tampons etc I didn’t realize. Makes more sense now that everything felt wrong even though nothing was actually wrong. I gave myself a little grace after that. 
In the evening we went to the bar for a couple drinks and then back to the hotel room, then couldn’t settle down so we went back to the bar till closing and then the hot tub. Good nights sleep and ready to hit the trail tomorrow.